My goodness, it has been a rough couple of days. I didn't know I had that many tears inside of me. I was not crying for so long, that now I am having a hard time stopping. Coming home yesterday, I got a little emotional. I always do once those grandkid trips are over. But, I started thinking about the very last time I saw your face. You looked so at peace. Just like you were sleeping. And I had to walk away from you forever. Never to see that face again. I started crying and I couldn't stop. I had to run out of Rodger and Rustie's house, leaving Harper there, because I couldn't stop crying. Then today, I finally resolved to turn off your phone. There really isn't a reason to have it on anymore. There hasn't been a reason for months. But, I finally decided I needed to take that step. I wasn't ready for the emotions that it would set off. Especially when it was done and I wasn't sure if I could hear your voicemail anymore. I had a tot