Notes to Ted

Well, it's been two years. I can't even believe it. I worked all day and kept my mind off things. Since being home, it's not as easy. I love you more than you'll ever know.

Happiest Birthday honey bunny. I hope you're having a wonderful birthay in heaven. I woke up this morning to go to the bathroom, and I threw the covers off. When I did that, I said, Happy Birthday Honey Bunny. As I was walking to the bathroom, the TV turned on. I'm pretty sure I hit a button when I threw the covers off. But, a big part of me wants to believe you were acknowledging me saying happy birthday. I kept busy today. Went through some pictures that came from my mom's house, did laundry. I also went through this hard drive you had photos on and put some of them on zip drives to send to Dee and Randi. I hope they like them. Then KayeLynn and I went to honor you with an effing burger. It's tradition. I love you to the moon and back. I miss you so very much. I hope you have a good birthday.

It's been four months since I've written you. It's been all summer long. So, I thought I would catch you up on what has been happening here at home!!! KayeLynn and I went on your and my annual honeymoon. We went to San Antonio. We went to Sea World there, the Alamo and the River Walk. We had a good time. I wrecked my rental car a bit. Backed into a pole and rubbed some paint onto the bumper. In June, I took the three girls to Lagoon, one at a time. It was a lot of fun. I really enjoyed the trip with Thea. She loves going on the rides so much. I'm sure you met up with Caroline there in heaven. She went to heaven in June. I figure you were one of the first ones to run up and greet her. She died of horrible Covid. I hope you two were able to catch up!! It's been such a miserable and hot summer. In July, the air conditioner started having problems. We tried to fix things and eventually I had to call in a service company. I called Manwill, since t

Happy 191st monthaversary. I miss you desperate. #loveyoumissyou

So - it's our anniversary today!!! Happy Anniversary. I worked my shift and the day really sucked. My knee is about as bad as it's ever been. The sucky part is that I had a cortisone shot about a month ago. It helped for a day, maybe two and then it started getting bad again. Almost every night, I'm in pain. I get my Delta insurance in July - so I'm just trying to make it til then to figure out what I can do. I have to wait until then for any more cortisone shots anyway. Came home, iced my knee and then decided I wanted to go out to dinner for our anniversary. So KayeLynn and I went to El Rancho - had chips, salsa, chile verde burrito and a MARGARITA!!! Now I'm just sitting home thinking of you. This is our second anniversary with you gone. But, our very last anniversary that we had together, you were running back and forth across the country to meet Aedynn for twenty mintes at the Atlanta airport. I'm ok with that. Aedynn will have that memor

Oh my gosh, I can't believe it's been over a month since I've written to you. I think about it all the time, but I just can't make myself. It absolutely does not mean I am not thinking about you, all the time, because I do. But, I just haven't felt like writing. I'm getting my vaccing on the 27th. KayeLynn got her first one. Hopefully, the rest of the kids can get theirs soon. They say they'll probably open it up on the first of April. It will be good. Hopefully, we'll start seeing something akin to normal soon. I can't believe that on Sunday you'll be gone for sixteen months. It's lunacy to think about that. I miss you horrible. But, damn, I'm glad I had you for the time I did. Today is our 190th monthaversary!! I'm trying to remember to wish it to you every month. Oh my gosh, I suck at that!!! I just want you to know how much I love you. I miss you so much. Thank you for being the very best husband in the land -

It's been a while. I have been meaning to write, but then I don't. I don't know why I'm holding back right now, but something keeps me from writing. I guess I'm just dealing with a lot of stuff right now and don't want to burden you. But, who do I burden if not you? I've been working on cleaning the basement. I just go down there for a bit every week. Saturday, Crystal, Brandon and the kids came over and we loaded up their trailer with a load for the dump. I'm starting to get through some stuff, but it's going to be a long journey!!! I'm dealing with health issues. I have not taken care of myself the last year, since you left. At all. So now, I'm paying the piper. I am now diabetic. My A1C was ridiculous - 14.2. So, I'm now on Metformin and checking my sugar levels three times a day. I've resigned myself to that. But, the scary thing is that my doctor is worried about my liver. So, I have an appointment with a spec

Well, yesterday was New Years Day. I just want you to know I had a great day!!! And it was all in honor of you!!! Because we couldn't have your birthday party in November - you know, I was quarantined - we had it yesterday. We went and had an effing burger in your honor. I have to say that I was not impressed with Habit Burger. I don't think I'll go there again. Then we rented out one of the Cinemark Theatres in Farmington. We watched the new Croods movie. It was pretty danged cute. But the best part, the kids could just do what they want. Especially my little Stinka. She ran around, stopped by everyone and took their treats. And whenever the sloth said DUN DUN DUN, so would she. We had a dance party at the end while the credits rolled. I have to say, it was the best day I've had since you left me. Maybe it was not our traditional movie marathon, but it made me very happy. I love you so much and your tradition lives on. This year, it was a little