Dear Ted - Number 76 - Liver Disease

I'm so sad you aren't here. I have to face this without you. Hopefully, I can fight it and get better. And not have to have a liver transplant.

Please hug on me when you can.

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Dear Ted - #70 - Two years

Well, it's been two years. I can't even believe it. I worked all day and kept my mind off things. Since being home, it's not as easy. I love you more than you'll ever know.

Hello my love. I just wanted you to know that I am so happy that you and your mama are together again. I am sure you were trying to be the very first to welcome her. I am sad she is gone from here, but she wasn't in a good place here the last couple of years. I felt really bad that I wasn't able to go visit her - STUPID COVID!!! Give her a big hug from me. I love you more than you'll ever know. And I miss you, too. All I could think of when I heard the news, what a beautiful reunion there was tonight.

Dear Ted #30

So here are a few of the things I can't do since you died: I haven't been able to change the fitted sheet on your side of the bed. Or the pillowcase. Harper and Penny have slept there, but I can't change them. Your water mug that sat next to you with your ice water has not been emptied or washed. I know that is weird, but somehow it signifies you. I don't watch our TV shows for the most part. I don't watch NCIS, Bull or a bunch of other shows. I can't sleep on days that I have to work. I'm exhausted four days a week. I can't take strong sleepy drugs on those days, Melatonin does nothing for me anymore. I don't know if it's a subconscious thing, because you're not there to make sure I get up. Whatever it is, I'm exhausted. I'm actually thinking of going a night shift. I know there is more. That is just what I thought of. And doing our taxes this year is sending me through anxiety hell. #loveyoumissyou

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