Notes to Ted

Just had to show you that Crystal made a new sticker for your Jeep.  It looks amazing. #loveyoumissyou

Hello my love. It's Father's Day - I hope you're having a good one.  In my mind, you're with your dad, my dad and you're all having a great time together.  I don't know if it's so, but it feels good to think that is what is going on.   Been really laid back here.  Didn't really do anything, besides clean the kitchen a bit and get some more stuff in the trash.  That's how I spend my Sunday.  Putting crap in the trash.  I know it's your crap - usually - but I have no clue what to do with a lot of it.  Steve and Tom neither wanted any of the phones or anything.  So - unless I feel like it's good for something, it's going into the trash. I still need to get down to Phoenix.  But Covid down there is sooo crazy bad.  Until it gets a little better, I don't dare go.  It's getting worse instead of better, so I'm almost scared to do anything right now.  It's bad enough just working and going to the store. I'm thinking of going t...

So - shit has been going down these last few days.  First off, the air conditioner blower, well actually the furnace blower stopped working.  I guess it works both. We went about four days without air conditioning.  I was ready to just buy a new furnace.  Brandon and Crystal was here and we had someone come over to give me a quote on a new furnace.  He ended up telling Brandon what the problem was.  Brandon fixed it for me.  The guy that gave the quote on the furnace went out and got the part we needed.  It cost $400. Now, the garage door is not working properly.  I think it's from where you hit the door and now it's just not doing what it needs to do.  So it will be the front door from here on out I guess.  I am not sure what it's going to cost to get that fixed.   My computer is starting to act up.  I know you would be yelling at me because I keep it on my lap all the time.  The fan seems to be going out. ...

Well, today was Memorial Day.   I missed you like crazy for crazy reasons.   The breaker kept popping when we were trying to fill the pool.  I had no idea how to fix it.  Thank goodness Raja kind of remembered what you had done.  I had to go down there more than once, since it had popped and I didn't know it.   It's been crazy without you.  I missed my little lifeguard.  

My Facebook memories have had lots of travel memories in it over the last week or so.  I guess it's cuz we always had our annual honeymoons around this time.  There have been photos from Paris, San Diego, Daytona and Disney, Myrtle Beach.  Oh, and don't forget our road trip.   So many adventures.  So many fun times. So much love.  We traveled so well together.  Among so many other things.  But, we were so good when we were on the road.  Oh, sure, there were times when we had our little tiffs.  That was usually because I would get so wound up.  It took you a long time to just let me wind up then wind down.  And still, there were times that you would push the buttons.  But mostly, that happened before the trip. We had so much fun together when we traveled.  I'm so sad that we don't get any more adventures.   But, when you figure how many places we got to go that most people will never see, it's crazy....

Happy Anniversary my love.  We have been married for  15 years, 180 months.  Who would have thunk  it. I missed you terribly today.  So I decided to just finish painting and hide away.  So, now I'm completely exhausted.   Do you remember our wedding day??  There is not much that I remember. I remember Rodger giving me away.  I remember saying I wouldn't obey.  Cuz, I wouldn't.   I remember photos and friends and  all that stuff. I remember driving all night to get to Jackpot and starving.  Finally stopping at Subway or something for dinner.  And I don't think it was Subway.   We had a good life. It wasn't always perfect.  But, we had a good life.   #loveyoumissyou

I just counted on my fingers.  It's almost been six months.  I can't even believe that.  It's gone by so fast and so slow. I've been dealing with a lot of depression the last couple of days.  I think it stems from  the fact that I just closed on the new mortgage.  That little link was the last one with our names together.  The jeep is gone.  The mortgage is refinanced in just my name.  Crazy to think that you are being erased from my life that way.  Just legally, not in my memories. I had a hard time the other day.  I decided to take down the rest of your clothes, so I could finish painting in the closet.  I packed up the things I wanted to keep.  Then I started with the clothes that I wasn't sure what I wanted to do with.  Either give to Rustie's dad or Rodger.   One of the shirts I gave you our very first Christmas was there.  I don't know why, but all  the sudden I just broke down.  It...