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Dear Ted #19

Hello my love.  It's been a few days.  Not that I'm not always thinking about you, I just don't have a lot to tell you from day to day.  It's been pretty normal.  Just working and coming home and trying to accomplish something.  Generally, I don't.  I had specific plans during my days off and I don't think I accomplished but a couple.  Sweeping, mopping, vacuuming and dishes.  I didn't get your shoes gathered up.  I didn't get the bathroom countertop finished.  I didn't get most things done.

I heard from Discover Card finally.  I think that is everything.  I'm not 100% sure they aren't going to go after something, but I really doubt you have hidden assets, so I don't know that there is anything to worry about.  But, you know me.  I always will worry.

I went to HOA last night.  For some reason, that was giving me anxiety.  I made it through.  I got the proxies out.  They have someone to replace you.  I wanted to knock him off that chair you always sat in, but I didn't.  I know the world needs to keep on moving. 

I'm having a hard time deciding whether or not to stay here or to try and find a smaller condo for KayeLynn and I.  The idea of selling just stresses me out, but a new beginning makes it a little easier for me.  And the idea of taking this mortgage back to a 30 year mortgage just makes my heart hurt.  We tried so hard to get it down and the principle was going down so beautifully.  Oh well, such is life.  I'll be paying a mortgage until I die or even longer.

So now we are just hanging in there. 

I hope it's amazing where you are.  You deserve to be in an amazing place.  You were the sweetest man in the land.  I could never stay mad at you - even when I tried.  I love you so much.

#loveyoumissyou

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