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Dear Ted #22

I didn't write on the two month anniversary.  I thought about it, but I didn't.

I feel like you are here sometimes, and other times I don't.  Last night was crazy and I am pretty sure you were here.  First off, we had a strange noise from the front of the house and the one kitty kept staring over there.  Then, she sat and stared at the corner here in the living room.  Then all the sudden the Siri, or whatever it is, on your phone went off.  I called one of the kittens a turd, then all the sudden your phone was giving the definition of turd and it was on your phone.  That is the second time your phone has done something like that.  But, the funny thing with this was, I was in the bathroom and your phone was in the living room.  KayeLynn laughed and laughed.  It's good we don't get spooked by the things that happened.  They actually give me comfort.

I took away your shoes and some of your clothes yesterday.  It causes me stress, because I think you get upset with me.  But, I know I need to do it.  I have to get ready for either staying or going.  But, dang, that bathroom looks amazing.  There are parts of it that I don't think were cleaned for 15 years!!!!  The things you had in your bathroom drawers.  I just couldn't do it without kind of laughing.  Keys, remotes, shavers, utility tools.  What the hell, my love???  You kind of kill me with your hoarding issues. 

I love you.  I can't believe it's been two months.  It's just completely crazy. 

#loveyoumissyou

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