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Dear Ted #30

So here are a few of the things I can't do since you died:


  • I haven't been able to change the fitted sheet on your side of the bed.  Or the pillowcase.  Harper and Penny have slept there, but I can't change them.
  • Your water mug that sat next to you with your ice water has not been emptied or washed.  I know that is weird, but somehow it signifies you.
  • I don't watch our TV shows for the most part.  I don't watch NCIS, Bull or a bunch of other shows.
  • I can't sleep on days that I have to work.  I'm exhausted four days a week. I can't take strong sleepy drugs on those days, Melatonin does nothing for me anymore. I don't know if it's a subconscious thing, because you're not there to make sure I get up.  Whatever it is, I'm exhausted.  I'm actually thinking of going a night shift.

I know there is more. That is just what I thought of.  And doing our taxes this year is sending me through anxiety hell.  

#loveyoumissyou

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