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Dear Ted #11

I've been dreading Saturday so much, that I didn't realized until tonight when I looked at my computer, that today is the 12th.  It kind of took the breath out of me. This is the first monthaversary that I haven't had you tell me Happy 175th monthaversary.  That kind of hit me a bit.  Because we deserved so many more than we got.  I'll never hear you say that to me again and that really makes me sad.

Today, we went out and got two kittens.  I knew that I couldn't leave her here alone if I wanted to travel if she didn't have something.  We had already talked about that.  That she was probably having panic attacks or anxiety when we would leave that she would make herself sick with it.  So, Rustie found some kitties in Sandy and we went and got them today.  I think they were feral kitties, so I'm a little worried.  They seem very skittish and crazy.  But, she is doing everything she can to make them feel at home.  Those kitties will get so much love.

Anyway, I just wanted to say happy monthaversary.  I can't believe in two days you will be gone for an entire month.  I still haven't come to complete terms with  that fact.  I like my little fantasy world that tells me you'll be home soon. 

#loveyoumissyou




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