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Dear Ted #4

This is weird.  I get upset when I don't write every day.  But, I get upset thinking I'm writing too much.  Ah - the conundrums of life.  Do you have conundrums still?  Gosh, I wish you could tell me.

Steve is flying in today.  He's coming to collect all the equipment for Voice Carrier that you have.  He called me, pretty much in tears, shortly after you died because he found that you had given him a full inventory of the things you have and where they were to be found.  He found it hidden somewhere in their network in a document.  Hopefully, they really are where you said - I can't imagine they won't be.  We shall see. 

There are so many things to be done.  And I really don't want to face them.  I really need to do thank you notes for all the things people sent and the things they did after you died.  I'm a little overwhelmed.  People have been amazing.  I go to work and am inundated by love and hugs.  I get texts from people checking on me.  Let alone all the love I get from our families. 

I got the sad news that your mama was taken by ambulance to the hospital yesterday.  Apparently she has pneumonia and her blood oxygen level was low.  The poor thing.  On top of everything else.  Mary said that after getting some breathing treatments and starting antibiotics, she seemed to improve.  But, she'll be in the hospital for a few days.  Makes me realize how fragile life still is.  But, I never thought I would bury you before she was buried.  I just need her to hang on for a while.  Right now would not be a good time for her to go.  But, I know I really don't have a say in it.  If I did, you would be downstairs right now working and I wouldn't be waiting for Steve to land.

Well, I love you so much.  I miss you so much.  I hope you know that.  I planned to spend the rest of life with you.  I didn't know I would lose you so soon.  There were way to many things to do together.   Well, rest in peace my love - cuz when I get there - there will be some major dancin' goin' on!!  Slow dancin'!!!!

#loveyoumissyou

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