I talked to your mom today for her birthday. She sounded good, but she did sound a bit absent minded. I think the infection and the pneumonia still has a hold on her brain a bit. She did say Christmas wasn't going to be the same without you, that she keeps expecting to talk to you.
I thought about you a lot today. I got a little choked up a couple of times. One of those being when I was talking to your mom. But, I was also thinking about how I never lost faith in the fact that you loved me. Never, once, did I ever question that love you had for me. And I never felt I could not trust you. I've never had that before. And I had the greatest man in the world, even when you were cranky, and now you're gone.
It's almost Christmas. It's going to be a test on me. I have done the bare minimum to make it through. And even that was probably half assed. I finally sent cards to Randi and Dee and the grandkiddos there, with some money. I don't know if I'll be able to do that anymore. I don't know what I'll be able to do next year at all. We'll see what the future holds.
I miss you so much. I still can't believe I'll never hear your voice again. Please know I love you with my whole heart.
I wanted to add a picture of us. This is from Mexico. We had so many wonderful times together.
#loveyoumissyou
I thought about you a lot today. I got a little choked up a couple of times. One of those being when I was talking to your mom. But, I was also thinking about how I never lost faith in the fact that you loved me. Never, once, did I ever question that love you had for me. And I never felt I could not trust you. I've never had that before. And I had the greatest man in the world, even when you were cranky, and now you're gone.
It's almost Christmas. It's going to be a test on me. I have done the bare minimum to make it through. And even that was probably half assed. I finally sent cards to Randi and Dee and the grandkiddos there, with some money. I don't know if I'll be able to do that anymore. I don't know what I'll be able to do next year at all. We'll see what the future holds.
I miss you so much. I still can't believe I'll never hear your voice again. Please know I love you with my whole heart.
I wanted to add a picture of us. This is from Mexico. We had so many wonderful times together.
#loveyoumissyou
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